Hey there, friends
Months have passed since my last post. Good Lord. Honestly, I have put blogging on the back burner.
So much has changed. Everything, really. Friends have gotten married. My BROTHER has gotten married. I finish culinary school in just a few months. I have been working at Nooga Paws for over a year, now. I've moved. I'm consistently exhausted.
Some things never change.
Yes, I still have early mornings. Yes, I still have late nights. Yes, I have now acquired insomnia. It's the little things, guys.
Throughout this year I have grown so much closer to some of my friends. They are more than friends, now. They feel more like family than I had thought possible. It's shocking to see how different things are, and how people that seemed like just another person are now people that I couldn't see my life without them. I'm not going to say this year has been easy by any means. It's been the hardest year of my life. But hard times and struggles make you realize who you really are. That's not always a pretty sight. It's radical. In the same way stumbling around in a dark room is incomparably easier when the light is turned on, I have seen some of the tables, shoes, and books I've stumbled over in the past. Navigating the floor is much easier now. Now that those things have come to light. Now I can push that table over to the side, and line the shoes up in a neat little row, and dust off those books. It's a bit easier to get around.
Maybe my metaphor is getting a bit hazy.
I've come to realize things about myself that I don't exactly like. But God is shaping me into who He wants me to be. The process is not easy, but it is long. It takes every fiber of your being. Change is never easy, but it is good. Change is healing. It's a restorative calm that sets in after the numbness passes.
Lord, I could blog like this for hours. If only I had hours to blog. HAH. But that would mean I have free time. I have little enough of that as it is. The time that I do have is better spent with people. I would rather spend an hour with the best friends than sitting in front of a screen. Who wouldn't?
Now is the time I make yet another promise that I will try to write on this ole' blog again soon. A promise that we both know may not come to fruition. But then again, I can still try.
So much has changed. Everything, really. Friends have gotten married. My BROTHER has gotten married. I finish culinary school in just a few months. I have been working at Nooga Paws for over a year, now. I've moved. I'm consistently exhausted.
Some things never change.
Yes, I still have early mornings. Yes, I still have late nights. Yes, I have now acquired insomnia. It's the little things, guys.
Throughout this year I have grown so much closer to some of my friends. They are more than friends, now. They feel more like family than I had thought possible. It's shocking to see how different things are, and how people that seemed like just another person are now people that I couldn't see my life without them. I'm not going to say this year has been easy by any means. It's been the hardest year of my life. But hard times and struggles make you realize who you really are. That's not always a pretty sight. It's radical. In the same way stumbling around in a dark room is incomparably easier when the light is turned on, I have seen some of the tables, shoes, and books I've stumbled over in the past. Navigating the floor is much easier now. Now that those things have come to light. Now I can push that table over to the side, and line the shoes up in a neat little row, and dust off those books. It's a bit easier to get around.
Maybe my metaphor is getting a bit hazy.
I've come to realize things about myself that I don't exactly like. But God is shaping me into who He wants me to be. The process is not easy, but it is long. It takes every fiber of your being. Change is never easy, but it is good. Change is healing. It's a restorative calm that sets in after the numbness passes.
Lord, I could blog like this for hours. If only I had hours to blog. HAH. But that would mean I have free time. I have little enough of that as it is. The time that I do have is better spent with people. I would rather spend an hour with the best friends than sitting in front of a screen. Who wouldn't?
Now is the time I make yet another promise that I will try to write on this ole' blog again soon. A promise that we both know may not come to fruition. But then again, I can still try.
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