Keep Calm and Carry On

I keep seeing these posters sporadically. I don't really know what made me feel so compelled to write this. So, here goes nothing.

God has been throwing me curve ball after curve ball. Things have not been easy in the least lately. Hardship. I guess I'm used to it by now? Yeah, my life hasn't been a cake-walk by any means but lately it's been kicking me down every chance it gets. I think I'm just used to meeting each hardship with a strong stance and [seemingly] withstanding it...putting on a brave face, and shrugging it off like it's nothing. "I'l get through it just like everything else. I'm a pretty strong survivor. I'll be fine," I would always say. "I'm fine, really".
When in reality I'm not fine. I'm exhausted. I'm frankly getting used to things not going how I plan out. Examples: Spring Break. My Phone. My Computer. My Car. My Semester. 
 Insurance on my car was supposed to be in effect by now. I had this amazing plan to go on a road-trip with three of my favorite people to New Mexico to see the Bearhearts for the first time since their wedding. Nope. Insurance is too expensive. Screw the plans I've had since last summer. No big deal. I'll just try to find a ride to Cape Coral to see everyone that I haven't seen since last year. Nope. Everyone's car is full. Looks like I'll be staying on campus. Literally the last place I wanted to be on Spring Break. I'll just use a little cash to buy some food since the great hall is closed this whole week. Not very much cash? You can live. Shrug it off, shrug it off. My phone's screen is broken. My computer still can't be unplugged from the wall, because the computer itself is defective, and interestingly enough - made to fail. My car's gas tank of defective, and will take $1,000 or more to fix. The two front tires need to be realigned, or replaced. That's who knows how much more money. I was supposed to have all A's in my classes by now. Nope. I can live with B's.

THESE THINGS ARE NOT A BIG DEAL. I have to keep telling myself that. There are people that are literally not able to feed themselves. I have food. I have friends that care for me, and invite me over for dinner. I have books that I have wanted to read and I FINALLY have time to read them. I have a bed to sleep in, and it's even comfortable. And I don't have to get up for class. I get to sleep in, and I get to do what I want to do pretty much all day. I don't use my computer much anyways. I don't use my phone much either. And a car is useless without gas, which I don't have enough money for anyways. 


All I can do is take a deep breath. Clear my head. Keep pressing on. Carry on. Such a simple phrase. Carry on. It's incredible the amount of hope that it sparks whenever I hear or see it. I can get through this by God's help, and by the help of others.

Once again. I'll get through it. Not by my own hand. God keeps allowing me to find these ways to deal with the things being thrown in my path. These people. Gosh, these people. Who do they think they are, always making me feel better whenever I see them?  Or even a quick text out of the blue. Why? Why do they care about me so much? I'm such a mess. I've got nothing to offer. All I can do is be thankful. Oh so thankful.

I love you guys. You know who you are.