gosh, am I a junior already?

gosh. talk about a busy semester. 18 credits. 15 hours of work-study. campus activities board. campus stewardship committee co-chair. spending time - REAL time - with people. it's insane. but i love every exhausting minute of it. Lord, give me strength. i feel like i need a vacation. and i haven't even had any major projects/papers due yet. this is going to be a fun year. tomorrow is the national day of prayer. praise the Lord. i am so excited. a day dedicated to communicating with the One who created communication. no class, no work, no CSC meetings, not many plans except for the sunrise service at 7:15am, and pancakes at the browns house with the hall. it's going to be strange without kevin or other seniors there. oh, kevin. i miss you and your new wife. there is this steady ache i feel when i think about them and how they used to be around. now all the seniors are all married or gone. in dave's case it's not so bad. i've been blessed with being able to spend a little time with him and clara and the beckster within the past week. this semester has proved to be so strange. being a junior is so crazy. i remember being a freshman, and having this vague idea of who the upperclassmen were, but not really knowing who they were, or anything about them. i'm that guy now. i'm that absentminded, busy-out-of-his-mind upperclassman. i love the random gaps of time in my schedule that will hopefully allow me to invest in people more. or do homework. people is a preferable choice. homework is more necessary though. you know. career and all that stuff. today i got my physical for my internship. the internship that i will be taking this summer. the summer of 2012. i'm so scared, but so excited. i know God will use me in some way that i can't even imagine. i'm so excited to see how that all pans out. hopefully it won't be possible for me to leave people behind in all of this insanity. can i just pause life for a second and take it slow? a nice slow-down in the schedule would be a week of sunny weather, with maybe a rainy day thrown in there somewhere where i can get some reading done, and finish all my projects and homework so i can relax when the time comes. go out to coffee with a few people. that would be nice. impossible, but nice. well then. sounds like i need to get some sleep. time to snuggle down into the covers and let them envelop me in a soft haze of unconsciousness for a few hours. until next time dear friends.